Rude-amentary Behavior

If people treat you a certain way, do you treat them the same way back? How do you respond to someone who is blatantly rude?

For instance, god love her but my mother is the rudest person I know. I don't know where she gets off acting the way she does. Every time she behaves this way I make sure I shove a mirror in her face so she can see how ugly she is portraying herself. My sister asked her a simple question and because she didn't want to answer or be bothered, she retorted with a rude SHUT UP. I mean really! How rude. The thing that bothers me is that she doesn't care she is being totally rude. To top things off, she wants complete respect from her children after she speaks to us like this. It's really unbelievable. This could be IS the very reason she and I don't get along. To everyone else, it's normal behavior for her. Unlike my counterparts (my sisters), i don't take shit from her. I don't care that she is my mama.

How annoyed I am right now is proof that I'm done with this little vacation. My stay is definitely over welcomed. I might need to leave before things get serious.

Home for the Holidays

Who said you can't go home?

I never thought I would be so excited to come back to the town I once ran away from. Anticipating the stinging heat of the sun at high noon and welcoming the the slowness of the southern town. Temperatures are hitting the mid 80s for the holiday season. I welcomed the 60 degree difference with open arms!

My flight home on the other hand was NOT what I expected. It must have been a while since I flew anywhere because everything seemed so foreign. The stiffness in my back and neck from the 2 hour flight. The horrible closeness of other passengers. Which by the way doesn't help when one of the might need to use the bathroom. Toxic gas on a WHOLE other level, ICK! I one point I really thought...no really know I was about to blow chunks. Thankfully, Delta showed a in flight movie. I highly recommend Fred Claus...HILARIOUS. Only Vince Vaughn can pull off sibling resentment comically. Thinking that my vacation was starting off on the wrong foot, my spirits lifted when I took in the scene of the cleanest airport ever! Coming from JFK, I believe any airport is the cleanest really. Looking around and seeing the lavish digs, I realized I was home.

Seeing my sisters waiting for me at the curb sent an overwhelming feeling of happiness that I missed for awhile. It jumped three more levels when my parents welcomed me home with open arms. Mind you my flight landed at 12:30am and I didn't get home until 2am, but it didn't matter to them. I was so excited that I couldn't go to sleep.

I'll be home for the next two weeks and hope things just get better. I'll keep you posted.

Happy Holidays!

Are You a Good Person?

If someone were to you give you an opportunity at a new lease on life, would you be deserving of it?

I have been pondering this question for the past couple of hours. Earlier this evening I watched the movie "Seven Pounds", and the premise behind the movie was interesting to say the least. Not to spoil it for anyone that hasn't seen the movie, I won't get into any details. The question throughout the movie that the lead character would ask was "Is this person a good person?". The main character was dealing with the tough decision of who deserves another chance and if the person is worthy of it.

The art of sacrificing one's self for another person is a skillful art. Not a lot of people can do it. So, it got me thinking. Would I do it? No...could I do it? I want to say that I would if the person deserved it. I want to think that I am a good person and that I make right choices, but if it was my life or someone else I'm not sure if I can sacrifice myself. Does that make me a bad person?

This is definitely something I will be thinking about from now until well after the new year. Hopefully people will get a lot out of this movie. I know I did.

Current Longings

I haven't seen my family in almost a year and I'm starting to get homesick. I miss my mother's off key singing to carols. My dad's grumbling about unneeded decorating for the holiday. My little sister freely walking around the house without pants scheming on the food being cooked. My older sister trying to change the way the house has been run since we were born. The thought of family all around me, even at time when I can't stand them, I still want them around. I miss the little things that got on my nerves before.

Love. Something I always wished for over my years. Experienced once or twice, but it was never reciprocated. Well, I don't think it it has. As I get older, I want it more than ever. But some how it seems to escape me. Relationships that I start don't end up how I figure them to. It's not really my place to make something out of nothing.

Family and love are the two things I long for right now.

New Direction

I know it's been awhile, but I have GREAT news!

I just completed my first course in the Editing program at NYU. It was a proofreading course for book publishing. I passed with an A and got rave reviews from my instructor. She informed me that I was the best she seen so far and that I have an innate skill in picking out imperfections. *HIGH FIVE* I was extremely blown away. I started this program to give me insight on the publishing industry. If I had what it took to actually be a book or magazine editor. To my delight, I DO! Just hearing that I have what it takes to make it in the industry gave me hope and motivation to push forward with my dream. To make things even better, my instructor has recommended me for a proofreading position at PEGUIN BOOKS!! *Doing the happy dance*

I can't believe all these great things are happening. I don't want to count my eggs before they hatch, but I'm just so excited. I'll definitely keep you posted on upcoming events.

Until next time...