Ode to the King: RIP Michael Jackson

As you all know, unless you have been living under a rock, the King of Pop is dead.

It's still hard to say it, type it, or think it. I still can't let go of the memory of me frantically reloading the CNN homepage to see if it was true. It was.

My heart goes out the to Jackson family and all the fans that adore Michael. He was definitely an icon for everyone growing up. Gender and race played no role in the fact that Michael was the best. Period.

It was amazing to see a person in my time that crossed boundary lines and make a difference. You hear of the Malcolm X and MLK of the world's past and think, "Man, I wish I was alive to encounter a person like that." I can say I have.

I was born in the midst and world breaking success of Thriller and danced my way into my formative years with Bad. Michael and his brothers were with me all along for the ride. Their music formed a feel good barrier around me when I wanted to get away from life's craziness. I'll never forget listening to the Jackson 5 for the first time thinking, "Who is that kid dancing and singing like that? How old is he? Is he a midget?". I couldn't fathom a little boy could blow and dance like Michael Jackson. It was impossible. From that moment on I was in awe. My mom bought their records on vinyl and let it spin on the weekends as we cleaned the house. A tradition that stands forth today. Can't go a cleaning day without listening to a little Michael or the Jackson 5.

Even thought it's sad know that he is gone, he left us so much that we should be happy. I know as time passes, I will celebrate Michael and all that he had given me and the world. Great music. The only thing I regret and really sad about it that I didn't get to see his greatness in concert. During the height of his career, I was too young to attend a concert, but I thought I had time to see him when I got older. That makes me sad. Other than that, I'm celebrating Michael. I'm doing that everytimg I play his song or when I dance to his videos.

Michael is where he should be and I hope he is moonwalking all over the clouds in heaven.

Current Longings

I haven't seen my family in almost a year and I'm starting to get homesick. I miss my mother's off key singing to carols. My dad's grumbling about unneeded decorating for the holiday. My little sister freely walking around the house without pants scheming on the food being cooked. My older sister trying to change the way the house has been run since we were born. The thought of family all around me, even at time when I can't stand them, I still want them around. I miss the little things that got on my nerves before.

Love. Something I always wished for over my years. Experienced once or twice, but it was never reciprocated. Well, I don't think it it has. As I get older, I want it more than ever. But some how it seems to escape me. Relationships that I start don't end up how I figure them to. It's not really my place to make something out of nothing.

Family and love are the two things I long for right now.

WWYD??

Say you found out that the car you are driving does not have insurance. What you thought you were paying wasn't actually what you were paying. The monthly payments were actually going to something non beneficial to you. What would you do?

I found out last night that my car insurance was canceled for non payment. I have been paying on car insurance monthly to find out I dont have any! The back story as quick as possible...

$80 monthly payment for 8 months + my cousin with a low insurance policy = SWINDLED

Whoever said "Family comes first." Definitely needs a KICK IN THE MOUTH! I'll finish up later...late for class

Passing Time...

Life is way to short. I feel like I'm behind the curve. Things I wanted to accomplish by a certain age, has not been completed. I'm just starting the process of getting my masters degree, and most of my peers have already completed them. I know you can't compare your life to others, but I can observe, right? My observation has brought to my attention that I need to take the molasses out my ass! Things need to be accomplished. So, I'm making a list. This should be interesting.

Stay tuned...